Posting here and keeping up with my main blog, Picnic With Ants, and dealing with a life that is out of control, I haven’t been able to keep up posting here. I’m sorry to all who started to follow my blog here and hope you will understand that this is just too much right now.… Continue reading Not posting….
Well it’s been a little bit since I posted. Not because I’ve had nothing to say, I think it’s because I’ve had too much to say. Life has been…challenging, recently. I started on steroids to stop my migraines and vertigo started. I’m been battling the vertigo a lot the past couple of weeks. Luckily the… Continue reading Been a little bit
okay, so this isn’t like me, but I have been so angry lately. The other day I fantasized about killing someone. (don’t worry, I’d never do it, I’m a huge pascifist!) I thought of punching them, kicking them in the privates, knocking them down and sitting on them and just beating their head against the… Continue reading I’m just so pissed
Tomorrow we have a friend moving in with us. Right now I’m nervous, stressed and I have a knot in my stomach that feels like doom. A couple of months ago I was not doing well at all, we were looking to hire someone to come in and help us out so hubby wouldn’t have… Continue reading Moving in
I know I am not useless. I know my life has changed a lot and I can’t do things I used to. For some of those things I’ve found ways to do things differently, or to look at things differently. But there are so many things lately that I want to do, but I can’t.… Continue reading I Want To, But I Can’t
This isn’t really about being chronically ill, it’s about me moving this past weekend and the complete mess up of the whole thing. Okay, I’m generalizing, it wasn’t a “complete mess”, but there sure was a doozy in there. First, I believe in being prepared as much as possible. When we decided I’d come over… Continue reading Being Prepared
They don’t see how I feel. The vertigo. The instability. The two sides of me. The depression, the mania. The pain. The fear. They don’t see me. They don’t see how I love. The friend. The equal. The fight to keep my world together. The joy. The strength. They don’t see me.